THAT MOMENT WHEN.....

You get to see the look on the faces of 2 kids when you walk them in to the office so they can share a joke. The one where you are holding the door closed on a kid so he can't get in. Hahahhaaa, look at him try pulling and pulling, and a few fist pounds to the door too, atta boy!  I was driving by, just not in the loop. I was coming from the back lot and so it took a moment to turn around and park - I grabbed for the door and the nice little lads opened it for me!

"Oh! So it works!?!" I proclaimed.
- "huhhhh? yeh" 
"It's not stuck or locked?" I quiz.
-crickets
"So you were holding it closed? Why?"
"uhh..ohhh...it was just a joke....."
"Oh! Good, here lets go let the office know about your door jokes! Come on guys, they'll love it!"

Long story short, they let the office in on their joke. I let the office in on the fact the kids did NOT happen to know I was driving by, and I also added that generally in a joke - everybody laughs. "Did Ayden look like he thought it was funny? Are you guys such good buds that you joke around like that? Was he laughing? No No and No? Welp! That's not a joke then...got me."


As I left the office, one of the kids followed me and apologized - I genuinely thanked him and told him "I am a mom and let me assure you - if that was you on the other side of that door, I would have stopped my car for you too. Not sure if that matters to him but he even held the door for me again :) And away I went. Ehron dangling from me like jewelry. Off to pay my water bill and get home for the other kids. We have a band concert tonight! I have things To Doooo.  Ayden, blissfully unaware was staying after for a Drama club meeting. I have told him always, (all of my children) I have your back buddy even when you can't see me. Especially when you can't see me. Today that promise rings loud and clear.

And you better believe I do NOT think those kids are Jerks, or Baaaad....I get it. Don't assume for one moment that the reason I stopped was because I am a Helicopter Mom, unwilling to let Ayden or any of my children out in the big bad world! Ohhhh, quite the very opposite in fact. Ayden would never do that kinda crap, but when I was his age? I might have. And probably did. Ok, Did. Not too many people stopped me from doing whatever I wanted, or caught me telling "Jokes" and I often did not care if they did. 

30 years later nobody will ever judge me harder than I do myself. However, I have a whole lot of peace with that part of me these days. No matter the things I have done wrong, something I have done Right is right there in the actions of my children. My kids have hearts of gold. They are someone that would come up next to you if another child was being mean. They would eat lunch with you if you were sitting alone. I have never, of ALL the times I have been called to office, had to come address fighting or bad behavior.  Despite me, I have done that right. My kids are already so much better than I was at that age, I can't hardly wait to see how else they will amaze me.