We Must Remain Blind, Or we Shall never See.

If you knew the ending to every story...the good ones. The Scary ones. Even the very sad ones? Would you read them? What's the point?  If it's too sad you may avoid that one, and likewise, if the person you want to save the day doesn't or the Prince doesn't Get the Princess, maybe you'd skip that story in favor of one that turns out just how you want??  You would miss out on all the other details or lessons by picking only what you like. True in life as well. If I told you here! You can have this Awesome guy - he will be everything you ever wanted  - but he is going to die in a car crash about 10 years into your marriage.  Or you can have the "Almost as good" one next to him, and he'll live to be 90? Would you jump at the the chance for the one you will lose or take comfort in the other option because it's safer. Or so it seems. In the parenting community of 'special needs' children, whatever they may be this is the recipe as well. Destiny. If God told you I can give you a baby. Right now. He won't speak. He may not have use of his legs And will need assistance all through life...would you jump in line? See The Universe knows better. That little light, that little soul needs a mommy & daddy too. Unconditional Love no matter how long he is here. 7 Days or 70 years - that child deserved to be fussed over and wished on while riding safe and snug in mommy's tummy. He deserved to be cared for and worried over by family and friends. And that may not have happened IF YOU KNEW. If you knew that it would be hard, you would have heartache, disappointment, and more bad days than good. Would you still. Regardless if the struggle is lifelong disabilities or a medical emergency. Regardless if we are talking about children, or relationships, or even taking a new step in life. Because that's what I mean. Life.

Not everything can be planned to a tee. Not everything Looks like what you wanted.  One of My favorite quotes? "Faith is believing in what you can't see so in the end you can see what you believed in" - Because what I have learned, and many of you as well - that when looking back, you find that you wouldn't change a thing. That even though something did not work out as you thought doesn't mean it did not work out. What you gained, or how you grew in that loss shaped you. Changed you. And In hindsight you would still do it even if the result was the same. Parents of children with special needs may wish for struggles to be easier, of cures to be found But when it comes to their child, they would do it again just the same. It's along the lines of the step on a mosquito in the past and change the future. Perhaps you could make a wish and have a "perfect" child? But maybe to have that life changes the details of the one you are in. In the life with a "perfect child" maybe your husband leaves you. Or You married someone else? Destiny is set in stone long before we walk it. Which is why you can't just wish it away. Or You wish away other parts as well. 

As I write these words, my heart is aching for a dear friend, her husband, and their families as they say goodbye to their sweet son. Their arms longed and their hearts prayed for this miracle for a very long time. I want them to never forget that The Universe heard every prayer. That the Heavens held a little shooting star, a bright light that would need to be loved and wanted for so intensely every single moment he was here. BUT you couldn't know for how long those moments would be...because if the Universe told you that part, maybe nobody would have been up for the job.  I want her to know that the Lord answered her prayer to be a Mommy. A Mother's love knows no boundary. Knows no Limit. It transcends Time. Space. Ages. In every single sense of the word that honor was Given to her, and will be hers until eternity when she gets to hold her sweet baby again. Though the story is full of turns and twists, many you did not choose - I know you KNOW now, that you would still choose to be his Mommy over and over. Because that is who you were meant to be. Your story is not the only one that is being written. Remember! A little angel wished for a Mommy & Daddy to love him no matter what! And you did!!! ohhhh but you did. You answered every little prayer he had too <3 Hallelujah.